♥♥♥ wOndeRfuL laNd ♥♥♥

This is the answer~!

2011-04-19T15:48:00.010+08:00

A lot of people wondering why I am vegetarian recently.

Well, I am telling the answer here so that you guys will have a clear picture.

During my 2 weeks block leaves, I went to Kota Kinabalu and Taiwan with Nara.

Taiwan is really a good place to visit. The people there are super friendly, polite and they are willing to put extra effort to help you if they can (at least those I met is like this).

We departed from Kota Kinabalu early in the morning to Taiwan. Reached there at about 1030am due to flight delayed. The weather there was okay on the first day. The previous week quite cold according to my friends. I get a new number in Taiwan so that I can contact the person in charge in accomodation.

The aunty that came to pick us up was really nice. She picked us up and brought us for lunch (胡须张卤肉饭). She treated us for lunch. Then she asked where we plan to go. She helped us to plan well and suggested we go to 淡水first。She will help us to bring back our luggage and she dropped us at LRT station.

First day at Taiwan was not bad coz the weather is really nice. About 20 degree celcius only. Felt like in Genting. That night we went back at 11++pm and aunty is waiting for us coz we do not have the room key yet. Pity her. Then she suggested we go to Hua Bo 花博the next day. She told us to wake up at 4am and go to queue up in the morning. And also she said we must run when we reach the place.

The second day, we took her advice. And she was RIGHT. People were running when they reach there. To get in, you must be early. There is limitation for people to enter everyday. We waited there from 4++am until 10++am only we can enter and get the ticket to enter 梦想馆. This ticket is so difficult to get, a lot of Taiwanese haven't enter the pavilion because you must queue up for it. Really 'no pain, no gain'. Well, the ticket we get to enter is 7.03pm. Almost every pavilion in Hua Bo have to queue up to enter. Hua Bo is too big till it covers few area. But no worry as there is shuttle bus service.

Here come my story. I was carrying a sling bag and I am in one of the shuttle bus to Yuan Shan station. Once I got down from the bus, I realised I have forgotten my bag. I straight away informed the person incharge there. But their services is too efficient. People get down and other people get in straight. The bus was gone. However, the staff there communicate with bus driver using walkie-talkie and they were trying to look for me. Really appreciate their help. They ask me to report it at lost and found too so that if somebody find it they will return it there. Everybody was wondering how can I lost my bag and what is inside my bag. Inside my bag, there was not much money, but I have my passport, IC, Nara's passport, my I-phone and also Nokia Express Music. Sincerely at that time I think somebody will find my bag and return it since people in Taiwan are so friendly. Therefore I am very calm, I didnt cry and panic.

The police at Lost and Found in Hua Bo was very nice too. He asked me what is my number so that he can call my phone and see whether there is somebody pick up. But, I did not roam my Malaysia number and i couldnt remember my Taiwan number. Erm. Then I remembered I have aunty's phone number inside my email. I used their computer to logged in to my email. Finally I contacted aunty and told her to look for my number coz i contacted her last night about 11pm. I told her what happen and she is very worried for me. At the same time, we contacted customer service and see whether they can reveal my Taiwan number or not. The lady officer asked me to provide my passport number. OMG, how can I remember. Nara logged in to internet and look for it. After we get the passport number and go through a long conversation with her, she said she can't reveal the information unless I can give her my Malaysia IC. WTH. But as a professional customer officer I understand she is doing her job. At this time, aunty called and said she managed to find a number that call her last night. But not sure whether is the correct one. Then the police officer confirmed with the customer service lady that is the number.

Okay finally we had the number. Aunty told us she called several times but nobody pick up. We tried too. Nobody pick up. They said then nobody found it. I am thinking it cant be coz I just put it beside the seat and it is very obvious to realise the existence. The stuff at the bus stop told me they had look for me but didnt find it. I was thinking if somebody take it then they will switch off the phone. But they didn't. But cannot be nobody realise too. I am confuse.

After that aunty ask me where am I, I told her and she said : Okay, I know already. Then she hang up. The police officer ask us to walk around first. We walked around and then heard my name through the PA system. We walked to Lost and Found, and then I saw aunty was there. She came for me. Felf so touched. T.T

She talked to the police officer and try to help me. After that she asked me whether I still have the ticket to enter Dream Pavilion or not. I said the ticket was inside the bag and now it was gone. She straight away ask the stuff there whether can get another 2 tickets or us ot not because she said we already here since morning. Queue up for so long and now the ticket was gone, effort gone. We must at least go to have a look. Then the staff at lost and found said they can't do anything. After that, aunty ask them to call the operator at Dream Pavilion, she wanted to talk to them. She explained that we come from very far, put so much effort to enter Dream Pavilion, how also they must give us 2 ticket to get in. After that, she managed to get us 2 tickets. So nice of her. But can't deny she really has her own way when do all this kind of stuff. It was really my pleasure to meet her.

The police officer asked us to go home first as we can't do anything except for waiting now. Aunty go home and we continue at Hua Bo. Aunty said must go to Xing Tian Gong 行天宫to pray, she said very 灵.

Luckily the camera is with Nara. Lol. The weather changes that day. At night it was so cold and Nara didnt brought his jacket when went out. Poor thing. Aunty ask to go home to take first but he said is okay. 7.03pm and we entered Dream Pavilion. It was so COOL and that time I only know why aunty insisted we must go to have a look. High technology and a lot of effort put!

By the time we went home already about 11++ at night. We did not have the room key as the key WAS inside my bag. OMG. We are unable to enter aunty place and we did not write down aunty's number. OMG again. Luckily there was a girl came out then we only managed to go in. In the lift, we met 3 person. 2 Malaysian girls from Kedah and another handsome guy that stayed on the same floor. We ask their help to call aunty. So shy. Dunno each other but ended up trouble people. We called aunty and she was sleeping that time. So so so shy again. Sorry aunty to disturb your sleep. She looked extremly tired as she said she just slept for few hours the day before. Poor thing. Haihz. We told 3 of them what happened and they was so surprised and shocked. This is how we met each other. Erm. This is fate i guess. That night Nara keep teasing me that I went to Taiwan illegally as I do not have any identity there. At least he has his IC with him, but me, nothing. So bad. But I have a very strong believe somebody will find my bag and return it to me. That night, we still can get through the number but still nobody pick up. I prayed silently. I prayed that if I managed to find back my bag, *I will be vegetarian for a month*.

The next day, aunty told me the police officer in Lost and Found called yesterday. He told her nobody find the bag, so it will be better that we lodge a police report. Then the next day we have to go to Malaysia Embassy there to report and redo passport. So shuei as they are having Cheng Beng Holiday for 4 days in a roll. So I can only wait for the next day to do my passport. And the next day I actually plan to go to Alishan. I have paid deposit of RM440 somemore. All the plan will be gone. Sad case. Aunty asked me to get ready and she will bring me to police station later. I was talking to the 2 sisters from Kedah after that. After a while, aunty came back, smile and put my head around her shoulder. Then i told aunty, I know I am illegal here. Haha. Aunty smile and then she said police from a police station called and said they FOUND my bag. I was like OMG, really????!! Aunty said Yes! She said yesterday she prayed for me somemore.

After get ready, she drove us to the police station near Hua Bo. The police officer asked me few question and filled up a form then I can take back my bag already. EVERYTHING were inside. NOTHING missing. I was so lucky!!! I love Taiwan and the people there. I am very sure if this happen in Malaysia, almost zero chances I can get back my bag. The police officer said the bus driver sent the bag to them early in the morning. Too bad the bus driver never gave them his details. If not I could have contacted him.

Hoooray!! My Alishan plan still continue. And I will keep my promise to become vegetarian for a month when I go back to Malaysia. Food in Taiwan is too hard to resist. Haha..^^ Aunty brought us to eat Oster Mi Sua after that. It tasted so good, better than 阿宗面线. Aunty paid for us again. Ish. After that we went to Wu Fen Pu, we dated aunty for dinner. She brought us to 五角板餐厅. A very nice and unique restaurant. This is the first day we had our proper meal in Taiwan. This time we finally treated her a meal. She felt so happy.She was cute, a very nice and talkative aunty. Love her lots!!

The next day we went to Alishan for 2 days, spent a night in Feng Jia and then went back to Taipei again. We stayed there with aunty for 5 nights. She is damn nice. She helped us to gather some people so that we can rent a taxi and went to visit places together. She planned for us for 12 hours trip which is really worth it.

So hard to leave Taiwan. So nice to meet aunty and some other friends. I have no chance to go to Xing Tian Gong to 拜拜。I told myself I must visit Taiwan again and also visit Xing Tian Gong.

I love Taiwan because of their friendly citizens, foods, system and technology. If Malaysia have those systems, a lot of things will definitely improve

Well, this is my unbelievable and incredible experience. I will never forget this and I learn my priceless lesson too!

Holiday!!

2011-03-29T09:44:00.000+08:00

My Last Post

2010-12-31T11:59:00.004+08:00

Well, it come to the end of the year 2010. This will be my last post for year 2010.

What have you done for year 2010? Me? Summary as below.

1. I move in to a new place near office and staying with my bf. *my 3rd house after cyberjaya*

2. I lost my beloved grandmother on 18th January 2010. *A big lost and regret in my life that i will never forget*

3. First year I never celebrate Chinese New Year. *after 23 years of happy CNY*

4. I work in the same company for more than 1 year. *about 1 and a half year to be exact*

5. I get closer with some of my colleagues and we spent time together in the clubs. LOL. *our second home, this is the year I club a lot*

6. I take initiative to know more people and not just stay at the corner to observe people. *a big step for me because I am a shy person at first*

7. I had my 24th birthday. *and I start to feel that I am OLD*

I want to thanks all my friends, family, colleagues, my love one for being supportive to me when i am down. For being there with me, bear my bad temper, bear my nonsenseness and 38ness. Haha.. Even though I know you guys will still love me a lot. I will be a better person in year 2011 and be kind to all of you. *better pray first* *winks*

Okay. So now I have to welcome year 2011.

Erm. Year 2011, I hope you will treat me nice like year 2010, give me more good luck and pamper me please.

My 2011 year's resolution as below:

1. I NEED to LOSE WEIGHT. *I want FIT and not FAT, gained so much weight in year 2010 T.T*

2. I need to have my own goal for life. I can't just spend my time doing nothing and repeat the same thing, erm what i can say is routine? I don't like routine and I get bored easily. *should I take MBA? Should I quit my job? I have to think and make decision which is hard for me*

3. I need to improve my English, want to learn more about Thai. *This is a must!!!*

4. I want to travel around the world.

5. I want to earn more money. *Lots and lots of money*

6. I want to be independent.

7. I want to learn how to drive. *LOL*

The most important thing is I want to be lucky all the time &

I want everybody to have a good life, stay healthy and be happy.

Year 2011. I can't wait to welcome you to my life. ^^

I am an i-user now~

2010-12-17T21:08:00.003+08:00

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah!!!!!!

Finally I get it.

After so long. Went to look for it and barking at naRa few times. *he claimed* LOL

Thanks, naRa. *muacks*

I get my late birthday present ^^.....yippie~~!!!

Bye bye my hair~

2010-12-17T20:39:00.003+08:00

side view

i am a boy~ ^^

after haircut!

before i cut my hair

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I cut my hair again.

Oh. Yes. AGAIN.

Why? Erm. Suddenly feel like cutting den I dragged naRa along to cut it.

I gave the guy i trusted authority to cut whatever style he wanted to cut and think is nice.

Well. Taa Daa...

I look so much like a boy now~ ^^

LOL. 1st day i prefer my previous hair but second day when i woke up and look into the mirror. I started to love my new hair. =p

To me, hair will grow long. So must cut it and try new style always. ^^

Any comment? i will accept..

My 24th birthday~!

2010-12-12T20:45:00.008+08:00

My 24th birthday. Erm. I am getting older again. Yes. Again. Next year will be 25 years old. OMG! 25???!!! 25 is a scary number. When a woman reach 25 years old, they will become old very fast. Yes. Very fast. I don't want that. T.T

This year, I had a wonderful and meaningful birthday. ^^ Well, those photos should be seen from the bottom to the top. LOL.

naRa asked me where I wanted to go. We planned to go to Pangkor at first. Who knows when his schedule out, he has only 2 days off. Aiks. Plan gone. =.=!!!

Ended up on the 1st Dec, naRa drove to Port Dickson. We spent 2 days 1 night there. Just a simple plan but I had fun! I felt so much in a holiday mood. I had apply annual leaves from 29th Nov to 5th Dec. Haha. Long holidays and do not have to answer calls anymore for these few days. Felt so relax. Had fun on the beach.

On the 2nd Dec after check out, he drove to Tanjung Tuan. The place where we knew each other since 2004. We knew each other from National Service. Haha. I still remember how we knew each other. It started when he pushed me in the water when i was playing tarzan swing. Lol. Bad person. =) A lot of memories came back. Time flies. So fast 6 years already.

After that,we drove back to Malacca. We went to A Famosa Safari. It was so fun. I love to see animals. Dunno why. Haha. They were so cute and fun to watch! I went to Singapore night Safari in August last time when i visited Sg with my elder sister. Sg's Safari is awesome and have more animals. However, Melaka's Safari give me the opportunity to get closer to those animals. LOVE it!!

First time ride elephant. The skin is seriously thick. The hairs too.
Our National Service area. Miss those moments with all of them. Lisa, Peipei, Yi Tong, Ai Kim, Pei Kee, Li Ing, Siew Fern, Soo Kee, Hui Lin, Winnie, Xavier, Wen Rui, Hsiang Ping etc. *hugs*

This was taken at the beach that we used to do lots of activities. *miss it so much*

Dinner at PD. I finished this crab myself. Crab with salted egg. *Yummy*
This was taken at the Port Dickson's beach.

Love this photo lots. *Konica*

Oh ya, i went home after that Had a good n relax time at home. Went shopping with elder sister. One day spent few hundreds. I am the champion. LOL.

All in all, I had the most memorable birthday this year. With my LOVE and my family. ^^

Happy Birthday to myself~

2010-12-01T10:22:00.004+08:00

Well, this year birthday is a bit different.

Basically I spent the time myself alone at 0000am. But, luckily I have somebody to make me smile. ^^

At 1st, felt so lonely because naRa was working and only will back after 12am. But, I have you all that spend time with me on Facebook, Msn, phone. Thanks all my babies and dearies. Lobe you all. *hugs* You all are the best~

Helmy, chatting with me since 11pm till 12am. Buddy, you are so nice man!

Henry, you are too early but I appreciate it so much. Phone msg, Facebook chatting, Facebook msg and all. But dont forget my flowers k. Hehe.

Kepei, thanks for the call. Love it. Must catch up with you soon. Sorry if i missed out a lot of things k. Take Care. *hugs*muacks*

Hmmp. Nara came back at 1 smthg with my favourite tom yam. Yummy. Gonna gain weight for supper. I still havent decide whether iphone4 or camera. He said is a must to have iphone4. Erm. I know it is a good phone. But i scare i will never use the application much. Felt like not worth it to have an expensive phone. Give me more time to think about it k. ^^

Slept at 4am and woke up at 8am. Replying facebook wishes. Thanks all my friends for your wishes. Appreciate it so much. *muacks*

Went to the gym after that. I admit I am not the one taking initiative to go. But i cant say is a force. LOL..He just wanted me to stay healthy. ^^

OK. It's time to go to shower and get ready to my next journey~ Gonna enjoy my AL to the max.

C ya, peeps...

*hugs*

Emo

2010-11-16T00:32:00.003+08:00

Long time never really take care of my blog.

Suddenly I have the mood to go through all my previous posts.

When I read back posts about her, I can't help myself and feel sad and emo. The tears dropped again. All of these seem like just happened not long ago.

I really can't imagine if someone I care and love gone again in the future. What will happen?

I want everybody to stay healthy and happy.

My parents, my friends, my love, all the people i care and love, please don't leave me alone.

Mum and dad, i miss both of you so much suddenly.

Sometimes, love just ain't enough. There is so much we NEED to DO rather than JUST SAY.

Goodnight people.

I need YOU!!

2010-11-16T00:04:00.002+08:00

Determination.

It's not the time for hide and seek again.

Please come to me. I NEED you so dearly.

The Magic

2010-11-15T23:47:00.003+08:00

There is a so called 'miracle water' in the market.

I bet everybody know about this product.

What is so special about this product? Hmmph.

Recently I give it a try.

This product really WOW me.

Well, it is not cheap. But definitely worth the money.

I was wondering how come this product can be so magical.

After about a week of trying this product, I can feel the changes.

My skin becoming smoother and fairer after few weeks. The skin tone is more even compared to last time.

Taa daa...

Let me introduce you SK-II Facial Treatment Essence.

You will know the magic of it once you give it a try.

Well, at least it works on me.

神奇水，真的很神奇。试了才知道。

It's FRIDAY

2010-07-16T13:04:00.002+08:00

It's Friday.

I love Friday.

Slept at 340am just now and woke up at 6 smthg in the morning to become a good gf. *wink* My dear need to get ready to work.

After that, slept again until 12pm. Have my brunch (the nyonya dumpling that i bought at ss2 yesterday) while watching 'kang xi lai le'. *yummy*

Felt a bit feverish but need to go for a shower to make myself fresh and continue with today's plan.

Yesterday went to Mid Valley and realised today is jusco sales. I wanted to get something done as well there.

So, have to say good luck to my wallet. ^ ^

Jiak ne!

Good Morning

2010-07-15T13:03:00.002+08:00

Good Morning!!!

2nd day of my holidays. Woke up in the afternoon at 12pm. *yawn*

I went to take a bath and after that i felt so fresh.

My whole body was shining due to OLAY total effects ultra nourishing body wash. It is a superb product with butter creamy like shower wash. It fighs 7 sign of aging all over the body.

The whitening mineral is the one that shine your skin. *MUST TRY* It smell nice too.

I'm lovin it.

孔子（confucius)~ johnny ^^

2010-07-14T14:56:00.005+08:00

我的第一天假期，看了下载已久的孔子。

本来只是要打发时间的，没想到这部戏可还是真的不赖。它成功的打动了我。

周润发演得真好啊！赞！

孔子的弟子；颜回，他为了抢救孔子的策子，不顾一切的在冰水里来回，最后也这样的被冻死了。

他打动了我，掉泪了。好久没有被一部戏感动过了。我打从心里彻彻底底的佩服孔子，对人的教育，拥护，爱戴。孔子的思想，为什么那么的神啊？

孔子，非常特别的伟人。佩服，佩服。。。

Customer Service experience

2010-07-12T01:23:00.006+08:00

Cm X: Hi, i would like to terminate my supplementary card.

As Standard Operating Procedure, we have to ask for the reason.

Me: Can i know the reason why you wanted to terminate the supp card?

Cm X *with crying tone*: Oh... Because my supp holder already pass away.

At that moment when i heard she said that, my tears dropped.

I understand her feeling and at that moment made me think of my grandma suddenly.

I know it's hard to accept that someone we love was away from us. Especially after that we have to take care of their things and stuff.

Everyone that I love and care, I wish you all stay healthy and happy always.

Always remember those you love as well before you do anything or make any decision.

L.O.V.E L.I.F.E

All i need is YOU!!!!

2010-07-05T16:44:00.006+08:00

DETERMINATION

***where are you***

I NEED YOU!!!!!

Emo day

2010-07-01T14:12:00.002+08:00

Yesterday I received a call that customer called in to ask about a transaction.

A very 'long gas' customer that keep insisted on what he wanted to know, how the transaction process and why was this and that.

Customer Y, why la you keep so much principles and why la you so stubborn, why why why? I been talking to you for about 40 minutes, called you twice and at the end you still insisted your way and wanted it to be escalated to manager. Wasting my time and spoilt my mood. This is my very first time encounter such IdXXT customer.

On the same day, another escalation due to waiver not approved. StUxxD. I hate escalations. Escalation will make you become so famous in the office. SHXXT. But they were so insisted. They think everything can be done when they speak to manager. NO WAY.

Erm. Maybe i need to be professional. No feelings involves. It's just work. But it's hard. Like what my colleague said: we are HUMAN though.

Dumpling Festival 2010

2010-06-24T11:24:00.002+08:00

16.6.2010

It's a chinese traditional culture festival to respect and to remember a special person called "Qu Yuan" whose is a loyal person towards his country.

So, this day people will wrap sticky rice with leaves and put some ingredients inside and steam it. There are few kinds, such as chicken, pork, red bean, nyonya, 'kee' (yellow sticky rice), special and etc.

I am a very lucky person as for the previous 23 years in my life, I had the chance to eat the orginal handmade chinese dumpling from home. It's a big day in my house that preparation for this celebration will be done few weeks ago. In grandma's house, grandma and mum and some relatives will soak the leaves, wash it one by one, prepare the ingredients, fry the ingredients, sticky rice and finally on the day they will wrap it together and after that steam it in a big giant steamer.

There are few dumpling that is compulsory for them to make which are 'bak zhang', red bean, 'kee zhang'. One of my aunty will make the nyonya zhang which i like it so much. The blue and white colour one. *hungry* aiks...

Since this year grandma gone already and the old house was destroyed by government, there is no more handmade dumpling from home.

Working in KL without transport and stay in non chinese area is difficult for me to find dumpling as well.

However, I had a very nice colleague that is so sweet. She brought me a dumpling when she came to work. I am seriously felt so touching. I felt so 'hang fok' when tasted it. Thank you, Keke. This is my 1st dunpling.

I went home for father's day. Mum asked me to bring back a nyanyo dumpling but i do not hv microwave in KL so i gave up. Hope to buy nyonya dumpling when go back to malaccca soon. My 2nd dumpling was bought at serdang with dear. Tasted ok but i still miss the taste of nyonya dumpling.... :-(
*looking forward to search for it*

A memorable day

2010-06-17T23:25:00.008+08:00

It's been so long since my last blog.

This is a proof that i'm such a lazy girl. Lol.

A big day to me. My grandma's 100th day. It is a culture i guess in buddhist to do a so called 'gong de'. I ask my parents: what does that mean. Nobody can tell me the exact reason. Just told me, after this ceremony grandma will have a better life in another space. Errmm..

Okay. Purposely took MC so that i can attend this special day because i couldnt swap my shift at all. Well, I tried. A lot of relatives and her friends came as well on that special day.

We did the 'gong de' in Cheng Hoon Teng, Malacca. From morning 6++ till night time 8++. All we did was pray, pray and pray. We get grandma, grandpa and their parents a bigger house, cars,money,maids...

at Cheng Hoon Teng doing prayers

this is what chinese mentioning: tian zi tian ting

I hope they got it now.

It was so tiring but it was worth it for the MC. At least i will not regret in the future.

Grandma, I miss you. Very much.

Rest in peace. *with love*

waiting

2010-04-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

i'm waiting for a big day.

a very impt day next week.

i promise i will be there for you.

a feeling call 'miss'

2010-02-13T00:06:00.003+08:00

i miss her. so much...so much...

those memories always on my mind...

i felt so guilty and i cant stop blaming myself for being so 'bu xiao'...

i should have spend more time with her...

this year will be the 1st chinese new year without you...and for the rest of the cny :-(

the feeling is so complicated and not real...

how i wished you are here with us...

how i wished to eat the reunion dinner together with you...

but this will never happen again...

how are you? i hope this year will be a great reunion cny for u and grandpa...

i wished there is a time machine to bring me back to the past

i miss you...miss you :-( so much... so much...

take care...

我敬爱的婆婆

2010-02-01T00:31:00.007+08:00

她，是我敬爱的人。

她，很有福气。

她，很疼爱我们。

她，心肠很好。

她，是我的婆婆，是我敬爱的婆婆。

一月十六日，做工做到六点，等着弟弟载我去医院看她。我并不知道原来那间医院是离我的公司那么近。不然的话很久之前我就会常常去看她了。到了医院，一进病房，那一幕依然清晰地停留在我的脑海。她坐在轮椅上，背对着我和弟弟。我去到他的面前，正面看着她。我有那么一刹那的愣住，她曾几何时变得那么那么的瘦，她的眼睛有一点点红红的，因为药的副作用。我的眼泪在打转，我差不多一个多月没见到她了，自从上次我生日之后我就没再回去马六甲看她了。即使是新年的时候，因为还要上班也没去看她。现在想回去，我真的是很不孝，我很后悔。她的记忆还是和以往一样好，她记得我是谁。虽然她已经九十二岁了，但是她记得我们，甚至她记得我们子子孙孙每一个人的生日，哪里一个祖先的祭日，应该要庆祝的每一个重要日子，她都记得清清楚楚。看着叔叔抱她上床，她是辛苦的。她没有力气走路了，上次见到她的时候，她还可以走路的。她躺在床上，没什么力气的伸出她的右手要握着我的手。我握着她的手，她的手是冷的。她看着我很关心地问我做工做到怎样，吃了没，要去买来吃。 “你要吃什么，叫爸爸去买” 这句话使每一次去店里的时候，她都会告诉我们的。我感觉到她很辛苦的讲话，真的很难过。她吃了药，有那么一段时间是我看着她肚子痛的样子。她没吃东西，也不想吃，说等下。我知道她很辛苦，她吃力的拉着病床旁边的铁条，看得在场的我们每一个眼红红。陪了她一下子，她睡着了。我答应了他去吃饭便先回了。明天早上爸爸，妈妈和大姐会上来吉隆坡看她。我打算明天再去看她。

一月十七日，早上六点多，大姐传简讯过来说他们不上来了因为婆婆等下会回去马六甲。因为第二天要工作所以我也没想那么多，没回去马六甲。婆婆十二点多回马六甲，大概三点到达。她们说昨天晚上她吵着要回马六甲，她说如果再不回的话不知道几时还有机会回去。叔叔他们只好顺着她的意思。我觉得她是放弃了，她大概知道了。她主要是要回去公公的店，那里也是我住到六年级的家。虽然那里拆了，但是那里都是她和我们的回忆，她和公公和回忆。她交代了些东西过后便回去她的新家了。

半夜三点多大姐传简讯来说叔叔说婆婆很严重了。他们正在赶过去。当我看到简讯的时候，我真的非常害怕，告诉大姐有什么事情通知我。四点多，大姐打来，她是哭着的。那时，不用她多说我已经知道什么事情了。婆婆去世了。在电话的那头，我们两个很伤心地哭着。大姐说她会打给妹妹，我打给弟弟。他也哭了。明天他开学，需要回去学校办点事才回去。妹妹明天又要register new semester 的 course. 我很后悔为何没有回去马六甲，就算是一下子也好。大姐说她们赶过去的时候她已经去世了。为何叔叔不叫救护车？为何当婆婆在一点多感觉不舒服的时候他们没有通知大家好让大家可以陪在她的身边？为何？为何？为何她昏迷不醒时才叫他们过去？十万个为什么？我真的很生气！生气！但是已经没有用了。。。没用了。。。

早上回去的时候，去巴士站载妹妹。她在车里已经泪流满脸。去到婆婆的新家进去放东西时经过客厅，婆婆就放在客厅。我们去看她的遗容的时候，眼泪就很不听话的流了下来，妹妹更是从未停过。婆婆走的很安详。她是在梦中走的。我知道妹妹非常非常的伤心，她和婆婆很亲。每次婆婆去医院复诊都是她陪她去的，她亲眼看着她历尽那些辛苦的过程，在她临走时又没有看到她。最后一次也许是一月一日那时吧。我知道她很自责。我也何尝不是呢。在婆婆身边烧金纸直到棺材店的人把棺材送来，看着他们把她放进去她的‘大屋’。之后可以做的就是摺金纸，烧金纸。第一天晚上没有安排到任何团体来帮她诵经，我有点气，为何没有呢？傍晚的时候才知道的。如果那些大人早早让我们知道，或许我们还能做些什么。就那样的第一天晚上，我们拼命地摺金纸，因为出殡那天需要二十大袋的金银纸少给她。我们还用往生纸褶莲花给她，她一定会喜欢的。

大人们都没有完全吃斋。我，妹妹和大姐决定为了她吃斋。起码49天，这是我们唯一可以为她做的。从三姑那儿听说婆婆要出院回来的那一天，特地吩咐叔叔去买巧克力，而且还是Ferrero Rocher的。为了什么？她是要送给照顾她几天的护士的，她就是这样，这样的好，对每个人都很好。我想这是为什么她能活这么久的原因吧，这是她修来的福。还有，她还说等她好一点回马六甲时她要请两桌因为一月有很多人生日，爸爸，弟弟，妈妈，叔叔还有两个堂弟都是在一月生日。她都能记得。我们听到都觉得很心酸。我还听姐姐说婆婆告诉叔叔说叫他去买白衣来穿。每次看戏都是有讲到人在临终时会看到自己在世上所做过的一切，它会像是一个加快的播放器在你的面前放映。不知道婆婆是不是也经历这个才会这么说，才会吵着回马六甲。晚上，我们几个都不睡，陪着婆婆，帮她上大香，换蜡烛因为这两样东西不能灭。摺金纸，帮她念经，念阿弥陀佛，回向给她，好让她往生西方极乐世界。直到早上，大人起来准备早点给她时我们才去睡一会儿。

第二晚，青云亭的师父来做法事。我们子子孙孙，大大小小都跟着师父，念经，绕着婆婆的‘大屋’。每绕一圈，看她一次，泪水就滑下来了。婆婆很有福气，她有十个儿女，孙子孙女，内外孙，内外曾孙，一共71个。她是五代大母。她是我伟大的婆婆。记得小时侯，我很不懂事的在婆婆面前说她偏心，偏偏偏心华语和福建同音。那时还和她怄气。现在想起来和姐姐妹妹讲起时，大家都笑成一团。只有我记得。以前还和婆婆住在一起的时候，每天早上都会有丰富的早餐，一家人在一起吃的。六年级搬了家后，就很少和婆婆一起吃饭了，除了大日子，年三十晚的团圆饭和一些特别的日子之外。我还以为今年的团圆饭会在婆婆的新家吃的，但是现在。。。。。。看到从国外特地回来的表哥去看婆婆的时候，他放声大哭的时候那个画面真的很心酸，每个人看得眼红红。

第三，第四晚都是诵经做法。姑姑还特别请慈济和人生佛学会来帮忙助念。很多亲戚朋友都有过来，新加坡的亲戚也泣不成声，婆婆生前对每一个人太好了。第四晚更是很多人到来。第四晚我的心情已经平复了不少，但是一想到明天婆婆就要埋葬又有很舍不得了。每一次上香给婆婆我都会跟她说，不用担心，公公会带你去玩，会照顾你，你要安心的去。和上次公公去世的时候一样，我们都会捐钱给学校和一些机构。学校的校长们都有到来为婆婆上香。

第五天，是出殡的日子了。当乐队伴奏‘世上只有妈妈好’的时候，我看到大家都红了眼。为婆婆念最后一次的经，眼睁睁的看着封棺的那一目，又掉泪了。我真的很舍不得她。‘大屋’被抬上车后，在培风乐队伴奏下，我们陪她走了一段路。那天的天气很好，阴阴的，可能有上帝的眷恋吧！之后，驾车的驾车，其他的上巴士，陪送婆婆经过之前公公的店，带她看看她住了一辈子的地方，让她没有遗憾的入土。到了日落洞，婆婆被放入了那深入地面几尺的地方。当泥土盖上时就会是一片黑暗了，不知道她会怕吗？但是，婆婆很幸福。因为她埋在和公公一样的墓里，就在他的旁边而已。上次公公埋葬时，就已经留了这一个位给她。我觉得很浪漫，很幸福。往生以后还可以和自己心爱的人在一起，真的很棒。我们把金银纸和准备给婆婆的屋子烧给婆婆后，不能回头的回家了。

回到了婆婆家安婆婆的灵位。我答应自己要尽量的回来给她上香，买东西给她吃，拜祭她。这一晚，我早睡了。这是因为明天我需要回吉隆坡上班，九点开工。早上就搭六点的巴士上吉隆坡。同一天六点放工后，又搭晚上七点的巴士回马六甲。这是因为公司需要人做工。但是，我申请了星期日的假。因为是婆婆的头七，需要上山去拜她，而且在这个特别的日子我想要在她的身边陪他。我们八点到那里拜她，而且还在那儿拍照留念。很巧的是，婆婆的出生时辰以及往生的时辰和公公的是一样的。之后我们便回去了。有机会当我拥有自己的车子时，我一定会常常常回来拜他们两个的。话说回来，婆婆真的很保佑我们，大人们都很喜欢买字。他们的车牌几乎都有开，不是正字就是跳子。真的是太神奇了。而且有些还开了几次。谢谢婆婆，让我知道你时时都是关心大家的。

今晚，我，妈妈，姐姐和爸爸决定睡在婆婆那儿。今晚是头七，大姑劝我和姐姐不要住在那里。她说她怕当婆婆回来的时候我们会怕。但是，对我而言，她是我的婆婆，我为什么会怕她呢？决定了。特地睡在楼阁那里，但是整个晚上我都没有听见任何声音。听他们说会有一点点的声音或者家里会有所不同，但是这些我并没有发现。哎，有点失望。我不知道她到底有没有回来啊。真的希望她有。

第二天早上有上回吉隆坡了，因为一点要做工。对我而言是值得的，因为是为了她。来回几轮马六甲和吉隆坡，我和巴士做了好朋友。

这个是我这么大以来第一个亲人去世。公公走的时候我还没有出生。第一次感觉失去亲人的痛苦，第一次眼睁睁看着亲爱的人就这样的走了。我真的还不是完全的能接受。这次我感觉到家人的重要性，没有人是可以取代家人的。所以真的要好好地珍惜他们，趁他们还在你的身边的时候好好地对待他们是我们能做到的。能和他们一起生活更是再好不过了，但是我在吉隆坡做工，难免需要离开他们。答应了自己要尽可能的常回去。失去亲人真的是不好受的，我不想要等到失去了才知道要珍惜，我怕那时太迟了。

婆婆，我爱你，你要安息呀！

p/s：我要谢谢我的team manager帮我拿到一些假期。还有谢谢nara给我的鼓励。再来要谢谢真娣，王之健，julia,sing see,kepei, meng how,kuei yong 和ah bert. 谢谢你们。

New place

2010-01-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

i moved house again.

Again?

Yes. Again.

I hope i will not move house again.

At least, not so soon.

Thanks, naRa!

Cant help falling in love

2009-12-27T00:51:00.002+08:00

OMG, i cant help myself.

I cant help myself for falling in love with him again!

L.O.V.E is a beautiful word. It have beautiful meaning and it mean something beautiful.

May all of you find someone that can share this feeling and word.

心情不好

2009-12-11T20:52:00.003+08:00

哎，为什么每一个人都会不满足？没有一个人可以享受简简单单的生活吗？

我很希望我是一个头脑简单，单纯，过着幸福快乐生活的女生。

当一个人开始长大的时候，思想是会慢慢的变化，我不再是个当年那个我。

现在的我，开始慢慢的有自信，胆子变大了，喜欢有挑战的东西。

工作了差不多五个多月，但是我真的是一个很会花钱的女生。这一点，哎，惭愧，已经在慢慢的改变了，祝福我吧！说真的，我是很开心，很享受的花那一些钱的。呵呵。

公司搬来吉隆坡了，我也跟着搬来这边。城市中心虽然方便多了，但是如果我可以选的话呢，我一定还是喜欢cyberjaya多一点。那边的东西好吃，地方干净，又可以上网。不用像现在要在coffee bean 才能上网，写blog,upload 照片。我在这儿已经待了五个钟，原因是太久没有上网了。

今天是难得的假期。不用上班，但是在家也不知道要做些什么。刚才想要放我生日的照片上facebook的时候才发现我生日那时的照片不知为何不见了，当时傻了一下，心情马上跌入谷底。还有，刚和同事去clubbing的照片也是不见了。那时其次，最伤心的还是生日的照片。

为了和他一起庆祝，前一天我也去剪了头发。换了一个发型，打扮漂漂亮亮，一起出去，吃饭，拍了很多的照片，自己很喜欢，很喜欢。之后因为不能上网，所以到现在才想放上网，但是现在。。。真的很生气，又不能做什么。他又不在我的身边，真想有个肩膀靠。

这份工，多数周末都要上班，相处的时间变少了，之间的话题少了。但是每次见面之后要分离的时候，发现自己更爱他，更想他。有时会发现每一次都会再爱上他，一次又一次。可能有些人会觉得很肉麻，但是，我想知道是否有人和我一样的感觉呢？

但是，感情真的是一门很高深的学问，需要两个人尽力的维持，两方面的付出。有时候，我太任性，太不会体谅，伤他很深，我是知道的。但是，我的人又很好胜，不想认输，低头。我想改变，我会尽量改变，为了我们的未来。虽然我知道很多人不能接受他，包括我的家人。不同种族真的那么重要吗？我知道他很难过，他每次都收在心上。他很尽力的尝试和我的家人，朋友相处。但是，有时他会觉得我的朋友其实不喜欢他。没有人想和他说话，我向他解释是大家不好意思和他说英文。他说他谅解，但是有时候有些感觉只有他自己知道。我真的很伤心因为我知道他很伤心，只是他都自己承受。有时候我可以看得出他是为了我，很尽力的和大家沟通，相处。为了我，他真的付出很多。他很完美，真的，对我很好。我真的应该改变自己，为了他。他的家人，朋友对我都很好，尤其是他的妈妈，实在是好到不行。

我想，我的家人几时才能完完全全的接受他呢？我真的很想知道。

今天，我真的很想他。

好了，是时候离开coffeebean 回家了。

it's been a while

2009-12-01T12:38:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since i last blog.

Shifted to a new place near masjid jamek because company shifted to kerinchi station.

I have no internet facility there. No facebook, no msn. Everyday is so boring.

Everyday just go to work, come back, rest, watch dvd.

It makes me become very lazy, always lying down on bed.

I feel so unhealthy actually. Not much exercise compared to last time and I'm gaining weights as well. Working, eating, sitting down, facing computer, answering calls is just a routine.

Now i know why adults always complaint that money is not easy to earn.

Very true, not easy to earn, but easy to spend. Without realise, few hundreds can 'pooooff', go missing.

However, sometimes money is well spent, on something that makes you happy. I will feel very happy because it is worth.

I'm still looking for another place to move, hopefully some where near kerinchi station, if can i want to find some places that is walking distance.

Anyone have any suggestion please let me know.

Arigatou ne!^^

A joke to share!

2009-08-25T22:28:00.004+08:00

Here goes the story.

I have a friend. Is a he.

One day when we were in the same lift, just two of us, there is nobody else in the lift.

When we reached our floor, I went out first.

So he was left behind.

I'm just outside of the lift wondering why he was still not yet come out.

Then I heard a looooooooooooooooong sound.

After that, he came out.

The first thing I did was run back to my house.

Why?

ERM...Why?

Because he was farting in the lift.

And you know what?

There was another person waiting for the lift outside.

After he came out, the same thing he did was run back with me.

We laugh like hell on the way till I can't even open my house's lock.

Cant stop laughing till now everytime I recall about that.

Damn him!!! >.<

Working Life

2009-08-25T22:08:00.006+08:00

Everybody say study is better than work.

I'm totally agree with both my hands ans legs up.

Working life is just like a routine.

Something you have to do but not necessarily that you will like it.

Feel stress sometimes. But it is just a start. The journey is still long.

However, I believe I can cope with it. How long it will take? I do not know.

I just need time.

Everyday come back from I will feel very lazy to go out again.

Like to stay in my own little space.

Do anything I like. Enjoy my own privacy. My little space.

Working life making me feel tired easily.

I understand why Bird get to bed so early at night already.

Totally understand.

I will easily fell asleep when lying on bed. Even with the light still on.

Maybe I'm growing older? I think so.

Mentally and physically.

Every week will wait for Friday to come. That is the most happy thing. Then can rest for 2 days.

No more semester break. No more holidays.

That's why I just can't wait for weekend! ^^

For this week? Another 2 days to go!

Yeah.

*counting down* ^^

Gain weights

2009-08-17T20:59:00.003+08:00

I gain a lot of weights recently.

Help! Have to do a lot of exercises and eat less already.

For those trying to say : You are not fat,believe me, do not believe what can you see.

Arrggghh, must have discipline already.

No more live for food motto.

Please do remind me that I'm fat so that i can remember. Thanks. LOL.

Nara's Birthday!

2009-07-22T21:02:00.005+08:00

Went back to celebrate dear's birthday.

Went to Sampan. Not so satisfied with the food there.

After that we went to Pure Bar. I'm Red..lol

A tired night after all...lol

A New Stage of LIFE

2009-07-22T20:30:00.004+08:00

Something happened on me recently.

I got robed at the night before my first day of work.

Still cant believe what happened to me. But to accept it.

Julia, I'm not so lucky after all.

After the incident, I know dear love me a lot.

I felt it and I'm so touched.

Felt guilty for my stupidity and being so emotional.

However, I learn my lesson and will be more alert in the future.

A new stage of life, working life.

Decided to cut my hair to welcome my new life.

Taadaa...The result...Nice? Please give me some comments...Thanks.

Working in cyberjaya now. Everything is ok except for the boredom in this dead city.

My colleagues. All are pretty, playful and open-minded. We always joke around and time pass so fast without realised.

But I'm so glad that finally I can online to watch shows and download some movie and all... ^^

Good or Bad?

2009-06-12T15:17:00.005+08:00

I'm too free at this moment! Good or Bad?No more lab, no more thesis, no more exams, no more classes.

I'm so free. Free to hang out. Free to online. Free to do anything I want.

Finding job at the moment. Everyday have to check mail, looking for new vacancy everywhere.

Sometimes it's so bored. Sometimes I enjoyed this kind of life so much.

I want to go shopping, clubbing, hang out with all my frens.

I miss Siok Yee, Yun Yan, How Yee, Joanne, Louanne, Li Wen so much. They were very close to me for the past few years.

I miss enggang. Stayed there for 2 years. Visit from room to room just to talk, or gossip was so fun.

I miss my coursemates. I miss a lot of ppl.

I'm confused about my future.

But I believe in fate. Everything will come and go with reason.

Just face it i think.

There is somewhere over the Rainbow.

We'll see. ^^

Mosquitoes love me a lot!

2009-05-06T03:11:00.003+08:00

Everywhere i go, mosquitoes like to follow me.

They love me so much.

They even kiss me.

Everywhere.

They were too enthusiastic until they bite me too.

This is what we called Love Bite? *LOL*

My hands after jogging in the morning!

My right hand.

Left hand.

Itchy like hell.

Darling cant stand and bought for me insect repellent cream.

Still, they love me sometimes.

Just sometimes.

At least a lot better.

Mosquitoes, please leave me alone!

KIDS...BABIES

2009-05-06T02:18:00.003+08:00

When worked as a part-time last time, I'd noticed that kids/babies nowadays have very thick and long eye lashes. Wondering why. Why so? Why kids last time do not like this? What kids nowadays eat? I love kids/babies. They are so cute, so innocent! Check it out the photos. The kid is super duper cute! Fuyoh! I want a kid so dearly!!!!!

Final Year Course Trip~Lang Tengah

2009-05-06T00:53:00.008+08:00

Lang Tengah is lcoated in Terengganu.

It is very near to Redang Island.

The water there is clean.

Blue sky and clear sea.

Sunny day, hot! Lots of sun block applied!

But still became darker. :-(

Lots of star in the clear dark sky at night.

Waiting for shooting stars but failed! My friends told me they saw a lot when they were in Redang last time.

Went snorkelling. Went jungle trekking.

Throw people in water. Buried people in the sand. Played crazy games. Shouted loud.

Took lots of photos. Satisfied.

Played with water. Played with wind. Played with soul. Play as hard as we can.

Found 'Blue Tears' on the beach. It's Pseudomonas fluorescent! What a beautiful thing!

Working life coming soon. So, I must treasure all the time before getting 'no life'.

Final Exam~

2009-04-13T19:50:00.002+08:00

Final exams coming, approching me.

But I am already in holiday mood.

No mood to study.

Tomorrow is virology final test.

I am going to die.

Haha.

Better go to study rather than wait to die.

Chiaoz....

Finally

2009-03-13T10:08:00.004+08:00

Finally, I'm free.

Free from lab work.

No more experiment.

No more worry.

No more final year project.

But still have thesis.

But I feel good now.

Happy!

Thought of pampering myself.

Any suggestion? hehe

Life isn't good enough!

2009-03-12T14:53:00.003+08:00

I want my freedom!

I need more and more freedom!

Set me free. Please!

I need my crazy life.

Please don't take it away from me.

Treasure

2009-03-05T23:59:00.007+08:00

Took 1030 bus back to malacca.

Reached malacca at 1230.

Dad picked me up.

Went to grandma's shop to visit her.

She is thinner and looked tired.

She was really happy that I went back to see her.

First time I saw her tears dropped.

Same goes to my dad.

When I talked to grandama, I saw the droplet of tears.

He turned to wiped them off.

But, I saw.

I hope she can get well soon.

I love her.

Today I did something I rarely do to my family.

I hugged her before i left.

Hug actually is not a culture practise in my house.

But that moment meant a lot to me.

I think she thought the same too.

Bought 1400 bus ticket.

Back to Serdang at 1540.

Today was a rainy day.

For both the weather and feeling.

Treasure everyone in life.

Not too late to regret.

Not too late for a move.

An action do make a lot of different.

new exposal about myself~ it's complicated!

2009-03-04T21:43:00.007+08:00

I always thought I'm strong enough.

I always thought I'm brave to face anything.

My sister told me that my grandmother was sick yesterday. She went for X-ray and will get result by today.

I called home just now. Mum told me that grandma will going for treatment in Singapore this weekend. There is something wrong with her liver. She asked me to go home this weekend.

Damn it! I have finishing school this weekend. It is quite impossible to skip.

I told my mum that I see what can I do for it then.

After put down the phone, complicated feelings all came.

Over my mind.

My feelings fluctuated.

My mood was down.

My grandama was about 92 years old. Nothing serious about her health before this. She is a good person, very kind and nice. I always thought she is very healthy.

I was shocked when know that she is sicked.

Complicated. Complicated.

Made my plan to skip tomorrow SAK class.

I will go home as early as I can to pay her a visit. Planned to come back to Serdang as early as I can too.

Thesis still have to be completed.

I always thought I will feel nothing when I heard some shocking news.

Well, I believe I was very wrong.

A good way to know myself huh.

A new exposal about myself.

God, please bless her. I wish she will get well soon so dearly.

Take a break...kit kat? ^^

2009-03-01T23:52:00.007+08:00

Pressure is all around all these undergraduate students.

Find out what had they did?

Where they went?

Taa Daa.....

Quattro..

For?

Music? Alcohol? Erm..Release tension?

Find out already?

Well, we were enjoyed ourselves!

There are 4 seasons's bar over there.

I love this.

Love u joanne!

Sotong SS with me! ^^

A memorable fun day!

Everyday is Valentine's Day

2009-02-24T17:38:00.009+08:00

That day was Valentine's day. I was waited this day to come since few weeks before. I don't really know why because since we had already been together for few years and this was not the first Valentine's day for us. But, I just can't wait for it. ^^

Present is not a must and neccessary thing for us. But this year, I wanted to give him something. He bought for me presents and stuffs all the days in a year. He loves me a lot. I know. But I'm actually a cold hearted girl. *Lol* I'm stubborn. I'm egoistic. I've a lot of bad habits. I'm too outgoing. I'm too playful. I'm not a good girl friend but he still appreciates me a lot. I know this.

When two person came along together, there must be something between them. Yes. Special. He is super duper special. Nice with temper. Very very patients, especially to me. ^^ Take care of me super well. People who know me long enough should have notice my changes.

What women need is the feeling that somebody do really care for them. A shoulder. A hug. A kiss. A understanding. Even a look, can really make a woman melt.

I already found my shoulder.

I hope everybody do. ^^

p/s: this is the dress last time I mentioned I bought when chinese new year eve.

chuak sai experience.

2009-02-16T22:20:00.012+08:00

today i bathed very very early...wat time? around 745p.m. yes. u r not wrong. To me, it is. I had asked my ex-roommate chin how yee to da bao spicy pan mee for me. When i went bec from the bathroom to my room, i found out there pan mee was on my table. Then, I went to miss ang's room n ask her whther how yee came b4 or not. She just answered me y ask like tat. Then, I answered tat i saw the mee on my table. She doesnt said much and then i went back to my room. I was thinking OMG, my room was so messy. Din expect her to come so early man!

I went to take bowl and planned to continue my show. After that, I tot of sending her a msn msg n say thx. However, I found out i took the wrong chopsticks. Therefore, I went out and changed. When i went bec to room again, I tot of calling her. Then so coincidence, my phone rang. My phone was on the bed. When i picked up the phone den i realised got SMTHG beside me. The THING was hide at the corner btw my cupboard n bed.

The only thing i did at tat moment was stare at tat THING and after 2 seconds delayed, I screamed. I never scream like tat in my life before i think. Even when play space shot or some scary games.I remembered i screamed at a very very high frequency and also screamed for quite long time. Then i started to hit the THING. As hard as i can. Then cant stop laughing. Tat THING was my ex-roommate, How Yee. She and miss ang were so terrible. Their plan was to scare me and they did.

walau..this was really a good memory for me then. I think this was what i deserved bcoz years ago in college i used to scare all of them. When form 6 also, i used to scare all my housemates. Hide in the cupboard to scare yun yan to death. Hide at the corner to scare miss ang. Now was my turn.

I knew. I deserved it. :-(

Haiyo...u guys wait...to my return...........lol~

mid nite

2009-02-11T02:18:00.008+08:00

i'm a person who enjoy the mid night moment a lot.

i like the peaceful feeling.

i like the quiet time.

mayb i'm too noisy during the day.

i need sometime for myself to stay quiet.

basically do rubbish thing at this kind of moment but i L.O.V.E it.

i know it is bad for health n i always heard ppl said will die of sudden.

but i do not care.

i'm a stubborn person.

always a stubborn person.

i do not know wat is the purpose of writing all this rubbish but i enjoy it.

a while more hv korean test but i do not care much.

sometime really dunno myself well.

yeah, like wat he always said, he knows me better than myself.

i need lot of motivations.

to do things tat i hv to do.

to keep my mind clear.

there are too much temptations out there n i couldn't resist.

i enjoy outing too much!

spend money like water.

but i enjoy it.

i'm ...i'm....i'm....

just being myself~we only live once~

你不是真正的快乐

2009-02-04T00:20:00.004+08:00

人群中哭着你只想变成透明的颜色

你再也不会梦或痛或心动了

你已经决定了你已经决定了

你静静忍着紧紧把昨天在拳心握着

而回忆越是甜就是越伤人

越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深切切淡掉了

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了于是你合群的一起笑了

当生存是规则不是你的选择

于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合

我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了然后再后悔着

你不是真正的快乐你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐你的伤从不肯完全的愈合

我站在你左侧却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你知道真正的快乐你应该脱下你穿的保护色

为什么失去了还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让配角全部结束在此刻重新开始活着

by Mayday

This is another Mayday's song i like!

Been playing again n again in my laptop! :-D

my cutie pie~

2009-02-03T22:04:00.000+08:00

突然好想你

2009-01-31T00:33:00.000+08:00

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛著不平息

最怕突然听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音

不愿那是悲伤的哭泣事到如今

终于让自己属于我自己只剩眼泪还骗不过自己

突然好想你你会在哪里

过得快乐或委屈

突然好想你

突然锋利的回忆突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲

变成两部悲伤的电影

为什么你带我走过最难忘的旅行然后留下最痛的纪念品

我们那么甜那么美那么相信那么疯那么热烈的曾经

为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你

你会在哪里

过得快乐或委屈

突然好想你

突然锋利的回忆

突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛著不平息最怕突然听到你的消息

最怕此生已经决心自己过

没有你

却又突然听到你的消息

by Mayday

Fall in love with this song. It mean a lot.

The lyrics really touch my heart.

new year clothes

2009-01-30T17:10:00.000+08:00

when cny is just near the corner, i was not really hv buy wat i called 'new year's clothes'..

i was thinking nvm la, cincai wear can d since i had some new clothes bought last time tat i not yet wear once.

but when came to cny eve, suddenly think of buying dress for cny!

erm..woman's mind change very fast ya~ lol

went to jonker walk's boutique where i used to work last time, i asked my ex-colleague to introduce me some new n nice dress!

n she did her great job...i'm in love v this dress so much! bought 2 dresses there n luckily the lady boss was nice enough still gave me staff price...2 dresses only RM79.90...walao...this time really untung!!!

having a good luck year this year? i H.O.P.E so!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

me at temple~cheng hoon teng

this is one of the dressess..the other one i do not hv a chance to wear yet...will post it next time den..^^

chinese new year gathering

2009-01-30T16:47:00.000+08:00

long time 5 of us din meet up together, we're close buddies since secondary school.

since now is cny n everybody are bec, we finally met up!

it was 1st day of cny. around 10 of us(but we did not took group photos) chat-chat at fren's cafe. played card games n watched they did some stupid stuffs. we all laughed like a crap. funny like hell!

here i introduce to u my buddies, from the left my pillow fighting julia chong(some ppl said we look alike), pretty singer kepei, our accountant sing see, and also aunty lim chen tee(she likes to errr....)..lol...

i want more holidays but ...sigh...having virology 1st test on monday..if not i surely will skip my classes!

SPECIAL + funny

2009-01-19T19:36:00.000+08:00

Can u imagine urself finding something at the big garbage area?

Yiaks... smelly + geli to see right?

Me~ a 'special' person experienced it today's morning.

Here goes the story!

I was throwing the rubbish in my room to the garbage area before I went to work yesterday afternoon. Then, when i was working, suddenly something came across my mind. Where the hell is it the stuff i bought at Caugnout night market last week? Errmm...Seem like I never seen for few days already.

After work, I went home and look for it. I searched everywhere. I still cant find it. Tinggg! There was a sound telling me i might throw it away this morning. I remembered inside the plastic bag, I did put some boxes which I took out the stuff inside and then throw away the boxes. Is it possible that i put it inside? First thing I did was, i rushed downstairs. I was relieve. Because I still can saw a mountain of garbage over there. But it was 12++ in the mid night. A lot of people yam cha + ing at the mamak downstair. I cant go there and explore those smelly garbage right? I decided to set my alarm at 630 in the morning. Because I have class at 8 am and i knew the majlis perbandaran workers only come at 7++ am(experience from last time when went to jogging in the morning).

Slept at about 2 am. I told Miss Ang if I cannot make it to wake up in the morning, please wake me up then. I'd been dreaming the whole night that I finding my stuff at the garbage area. Then I heard 'knock knock'. Wow~ It was already 720 am. The first thing I did was I went downstair towards the garbage area. When I just reached downstairs, I saw the garbage truck went into the next street. I quickly went to search for my plastic bag. The lucky thing was when I throw it away, I didn't throw it into the big giant 'tong'. I just put it beside. There were lots of plastic bags over there. After moved a bit of those plastic bags, finally I found my plastic bag. Hehe. It was easy to recognise because of the Oriental Green Pea snack's cover that I throw it inside. I quickly grabbed it and then went to the staircase. I opened the plastic bag and finally I found it beside the box! Walau~ so lucky! Haha. I throwed away again the rubbish and ran upstairs to prepare to go for class.

For sure the first thing I did was washed my hands. Miss Ang was surprised when she saw me open the door. She doesnt know I went downstairs and the reason why. Haha. Of course I shared this funny story with her.

Not to forget, must thanks her for woke me up. If not, the next second, all the garbage there will be gone. My money will also gone~ :-D

This was a very good lesson for me! Thanks god!

she

2009-01-06T19:32:00.000+08:00

She is my new pet.

She is New Zealand White Rabbit.

I had been looking for it for such a long time.

She costs RM 250.

Wow, not cheap huh!

But, i dont have to pay for it.^^

Why?

Because she is the main soul of my final year project; so, she was sponsored under my supervisor.

I'm cruel?

A little. I have to. Sigh. I know she is innocent.

But what should i do? I have to graduate what.

Dun worry, i'm not going to kill her.

Just some injections to see her immune respond.

It will not die.

Am i consoled?

Erm, i think i am. ^^

Jogoya buffet~ a long waited outing!

2008-12-18T16:41:00.000+08:00

I planned to go to Jogoya long time ago when i got to know that girls having half price promotion. That time I was thinking who to ask to go along. Miss Ang again disappoint me. Miss Chin just went with her familes. Meanwhile, Miss Louanne might going with her mum. Well, Joanne and Liwen ended up agreed to go along. Before that, I wasn't so sure wether they will say yes or not. Finally, yeah, all settled.

But when came to when to go, there are some problems such as they have to enter lab, and I have to go home. Finally, set a date after i knew when is my training. I called Jogoya and booked for the time. Ling Hui will join us too. So all together, we have 4 person.

Wednesday, 17th December. Ling Hui drove us there. We reached quite early but still cannot enter yet. So, me, Joanne and Liwen went for a walk. At the same time, we took some photos for fun. Girls hang out suppose is to have fun! So, we were ready to go crazy without how people will look at us. Took some photos in the toilet. Hah, this is a must!! In addition, some others nice photos!

somehow i love the photo above

We went in at about 2 after a long Q. Grabbed those foods and started to eat. Oh ya, not to forget, photo session first! ^^

fried durian..taste different! dim sum, my favourite!

the seafood were not so fresh! i finished this fish alone Haagen-daz ice-cream..yummy

Quite satisfied for that buffet. After that, we walked around, took photos. We went to Sg.Wang. Went to McD after a long shopping. We set the timer to take photos. Stupid but fun.

Liwen, a natural shot!

Joanne, poser! Ling Hui was concentrating on something! Me, fake! lol Set timer for all those!

Next, we went to Pavillion. Joanne was in love with the big giant christmas three over there. Sure, lots and lots of photos. Ling Hui brought us to walk around there since she is familiar with the place there.

Big three huh!

4 of us Joanne with Mr.Red...see the guy behind? so cute! I'm going to date with him! lol

We reached home at 10 somthing. Legs were tired but satisfied. Bought 1 shirt and a new umbrella. ^^ After bathed, for sure I cant wait to see those photos. Transferred it to my laptop and also started the sharing folder with Liwen.

A fun day! A photo session day!

An unexpected gift!

2008-12-10T11:43:00.000+08:00

i was seriously happy n surprised with this unexpected b'day gift!

i told him n shown him this b4 tat it is quite nice, but i never expected tat he will go to buy n gv as a b'day present!

i had insisted tat i do not want anything from him for my b'day! a dinner tat spent together with him made me feel very contented n happy d. ^^

i think tat when a relationship come up to a point which is a stationary phase, a lot of things is not really matter d.

Gifts - can receive everyday

Events n special days - to me now, it is just an formality

wat is impt is the time tat spend together, everyday is just like valentine's day...omg...so lame...? but this is wat i feel seriously...the laugher, those moments, those jokes, those stupid n crazy things done together are so precious...

i felt tat i'm in love again n again everyday, with him!

when i got into his car few days after my b'day( i sit behind coz his dad sit in front), i saw a very catchy black colour's bag with gold words. it is from Esprit! at first i guess inside the bag is an umbrella bcoz b4 tat we went to Esprit becoz i wanted to buy an umbrella.

who knows when i peep in to hv a look, it surprised me tat it is the gorgeous bag tat i told him tat day! i was reaaallllyy surprised and looked at his eyes from the mirror. he looked and smile to me from the mirror when he was driving. i was sooooo touched! i really never expect this!...omg!

i love it so much!

i love him so much! damn it!

2008的生日

2008-12-04T01:02:00.000+08:00

刚过二十二岁，人家都说过了二十一岁会特别的快老，不知道是真的吗？以前当别人说我看起来样子很小时，我每次都不是很高兴。现在都希望别人说你看起来好小哦，比你实际的年龄差了一点。可能女生真的会在意年龄了，尤其是渐渐的成长，成熟的时候。

那天早上，和第一年的室友，louanne在kepong station meet, 然后呢，她就驾车去One utama。我的一个马六甲的姐妹，可沛已经在那儿等我们了，她好可怜，因为姐姐要做工的关系，很早就要出去，在那儿等了好久。

我们先去Mc.D吃午餐，然后呢就去血拼了！Padini 的sales 很恐怖，我们在那儿逛了蛮久的，试了几件的衣服，拍了几张照片回去给娜拉看。哈哈！结果呢，考虑了很久才狠下心决定买一件比较pratical的t-shirt.

是它啦！

逛着逛着，到了该走的时间，因为我和可沛要去pudu买车票回马六甲。但是在回之前，我们拍了一连串的照片，哈哈！以下是其中的几张！

还蛮高兴这两个才认识的女生不会不好意思，都能聊。和可沛搭火车去到吉隆坡站，然后走路去pudu，笨蛋的我竟然笨到走了远路。哎！我们买了一个小时过后的车票。一路回去的路程中，我们聊了很多，竟然聊到马六甲。之前的我们还蛮爱睡的。不得不佩服我们，哈哈！而且我们也很久没有好好的聊天了。可沛呢，和我认识了大约有十五，十六年。她是一个大美女，追她的男生可多的是！和她同班了十一年，哈哈！中间呢，很多事情发生。但是啊，我们到现在都还是很好的的朋友，姐妹！我相信这就是缘分！

louanne呢？她是serani人，中文名字是米雪。多么的好听，但是非常非常的少人叫她的中文名。我想她自己也听不惯吧！这个女人呢，是我上大学第一年的室友，和她住在同一个房间好处是非常非常的多。她是个很随和的人。真么说呢？她是修读音乐系的，擅长小提琴。每次一大早就去上课，晚上才回来。房间呢都是我一个人的。哈哈！然后呢，她带来的东西多得是。尤其是吃的。我想那时的我发福都是因为她，她带来的东西大部分都是我在吃。哎！也因为她，我们的房间被称为‘杂货店’。因为他是吉隆坡人，常回家。然后每次一回来，吃的东西就越来越多。我需要什么告诉她就好了。她呢？因为英文好的关系，也帮忙我做功课哦！哈哈！这样的室友哪里找？

好了，话说回来。到了马六甲，当然和娜拉一起庆祝啦！我们去了我最爱的sushi king吃晚餐，真的很有满足感！好吃！！
之后，娜拉带我去马来西亚之眼。现在他就坐落于马六甲，而且还比上次在吉隆坡的时候便宜。拥有大马卡才十零吉，学生证的话才八零吉。刚开始的时候，我还有一点点的怕怕。因为它刚开始升上去的时候，有点怕高的感觉！但是之后就适应了。它给我的感觉有一点像云顶的space shot。

我过了一个开心又美好的一天！！：-）

answer

2008-12-02T19:42:00.000+08:00

a lot of my frens wondering why i said that blogging here have more privacy since it is a public blog too...let me explain, i have 2 blogs, the old one is in friendster and the new one is here..

here have privacy bcoz only my msn frens will know this blog....but in frenster, some frens that i barely know can read my blog too...so i chose to blog here!

i HATE...

2008-11-17T00:29:00.000+08:00

I HATE BEING ACCUSED.......

DUN EVER CHALLENGE ME V TAT...

I REALLY CANT STAND IT WHEN PPL ACCUSING ME....

FULL STOP!!!!!!!!

holidays

2008-11-12T15:51:00.000+08:00

finished exam n having a long holidays till end or december...but still have final year project to carry on....my lab delayed for quite some time d, felt worried when saw all my frens rushing to lab everyday...a little bit pressure...the only issue is tat i cant get the rabbit i need, very headache...tot i got the correct rabbit after contacted a person who selling rabbits, waited for him for more than 2 hours at faculty, who knows tat the rabbit breed is not the correct one...felt a bit desperate for tat...haih...been waiting n hoping for so long...finally only got nth....

now contacted other supplier, hopefully can get it as soon as possible...i want to graduate !!

live here a bit boring n sucks...been watching movies n online only while searching for the rabbit..if not i would hv gone home...haih...sad...

Tired!!

2008-10-29T20:57:00.000+08:00

Went for interview and also training today....it was such a long day for me...went out at 8 smthg, took bus, ktm n then changed to bus again to office, the interview was on 11am..me n siok yee went together, but only me had the training after tat...we managed to reach there on time, waited for clients to interview...after her interview then she can go back d...unluckily, i'm the last to be interviewed...even tat make no much different since i have another training at 230....after the interview d 1pm...den i went downstairs to have some foods and studied Statistic which will be tested on friday...went back to office again at 2pm...waited for other Ts till around 3pm..den the training started, just 3 of us..me plus another 2 guys...the trainer was frendly...but the role play section is really long...i only finished the training about 5...waited for U82 for about 30 minutes n the damn bus din stop...no choice den i hv to wait for another bus...got on metro bus 20 minutes after tat n tat made me damn tired....my legs...n under the sun some more...even tat i d under umbrella, the weather is really bukan main-main...lol...went to kl sentral n took train back to serdang, the train was so packed v ppl, hot n smelly...ish!! ok, back to serdang station, waited for T416 to go back...waited for about 1 n a half hours...i'm damn tired man!! y no bus for so long? rapid kl should have improved! finally came back to my room...n my mind is blur blur...mentally n physically tired...but still hv to study for friday's test! wat a N.I.C.E day!!!

sem 5th

2008-10-14T01:41:00.000+08:00

my 5th sem seem like going to end so fast...this sem is a really crazy sem...everything seem over so fast...when i think back, it is actually feel like i did nth in this sem..final year project only seem to take a big part in this sem...other than tat just tests, assignmnets, quizs, tutorials...which i care not much actually to be honest...always do last minute work...lazy n relax all the time...lol...this is the positive me...too positive...on the other hand, can be too negative too...but for tat i hide it nicely...not much ppl c me being too negative b4...sagittarius fault again..lol...

this sem going to end soon...final exams coming so soon on 20th october some more...next monday...den follow by 22th, 23th,24th and 31st....sien...

time to get crazy again! plan not to go to lab today n feel like pampered myself today...called my ex-roommate to go out...felt suprised that she said ok n she was on her back to serdang! after lab went to jusco cheras selatan for karaoke--green box. omg, it is monday n it was fully book when we were ther...we had to wait until 4 pm only can get a room...it was 1++ pm , den we decided to go for mr.tepanyaki for lunch....yummy..window shopping for a while, went to bookshop n explored the book shelfs there... just to waste time den we spent quite some time there...fun to hang out at there actually...

then karaoke time...tidbits n free flow drinks...we spent 3 hours there...fun n funny...she said my jokes became colder n colder d...sien...our 默契 became less d...haih...lol...funniest part is the twins's song...we tot tat was the final song before we go back...but we r not really familiar v tat song...simply hentam only...laugh most of the time...can't stand it...i think i really ki siao d...most of my coursemates were pia + ing for next week's exams i think...but me...crazy A.G.A.I.N...lol...but who cares? ^^

花Hee低欧Ho 啦。。。

my motto~cheers...

sagittarius

2008-10-12T03:28:00.000+08:00

i'm glad for being a sagittarius gal...boredom is away from me, life is challenging, freedom is wat i want n frens is wat i need..being a sagittarius, most of the time, when b'day come, ur frens will celebrate for u bcoz everybody having holidays, especially when schooling time...

i'm a gal tat like to make frens....frens are impt to me...i used to think that they r the most impt one but nowadays they r not... live in this reality world u will know frens r easy to get, they come n go away very fast, but true frens r very difficult to find... i'm easily to trust a person, which is not a good thing...i've learn this...started to know the tactic for living n understand a lot of things tat confused me when i was young..

i loved freedom, but freedom became less when u r seriously attached to a person..this is wat u hv to sacrifice...sometimes i feel confused, i'm too playful, i like to hang out, travelling, jokes around...tis make my baby suffer because the time i have to spend v him become less...cannot avoid that argue happened between couples, so do we...he tried to understand me, understand my selfish-ness, understand my stubborn-ness, understand wat i insisted, he is a very very very good lover...sometimes i felt so sorry for him, it's very hard for me to change... i'm too selfish n i love myself too much till most of the time neglected him..to him, i'm his everything...but to me, he is part of my life, frens r part of my life so do my family...i've to try harder to change i guess...

wat to say? all sagittarius fault! mum n dad's fault....y? hahaha...u tell me why..

me

2008-10-12T02:57:00.000+08:00

make my decision to create a new blog other than using friendster's blog because i need some privacy i guess...for being a human being, i think everyone have their own life which are totally different from each other..everyone having their own problems...everyone hv their own space...tat's y ppl write blog i guess..to share, to express their feelings n life... so do i..

my life is simple i guess...i'm a very ordinary gal...when i was young, i got no confident, very very very little confident(super duper ugly some more), till when i was secondary school still the same...i found my confident when i met him, a guy tat change so much of my life, he told me to see this world positively, enjoying my life, he gaves me a lot of confident n happiness, i felt so grateful have him in my life...he is a baby...when i just get to know him, he gaves me the impression that he is a shy but talkative guy, nice to everybody n very polite..when get closer to him, he teached me to see how colourful is this world, always no worries, and be happy...he is a manja baby...like to manja to me most of the time, jokes around and made me laugh always...he is a very smart guy, knowledgable...he is my baby...love love!!

♥♥♥ wOndeRfuL laNd ♥♥♥

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