Cant help falling in love

OMG, i cant help myself.

I cant help myself for falling in love with him again!

L.O.V.E is a beautiful word. It have beautiful meaning and it mean something beautiful.

May all of you find someone that can share this feeling and word.

心情不好

哎，为什么每一个人都会不满足？没有一个人可以享受简简单单的生活吗？

我很希望我是一个头脑简单，单纯，过着幸福快乐生活的女生。

当一个人开始长大的时候，思想是会慢慢的变化，我不再是个当年那个我。

现在的我，开始慢慢的有自信，胆子变大了，喜欢有挑战的东西。

工作了差不多五个多月，但是我真的是一个很会花钱的女生。这一点，哎，惭愧，已经在慢慢的改变了，祝福我吧！说真的，我是很开心，很享受的花那一些钱的。呵呵。

公司搬来吉隆坡了，我也跟着搬来这边。城市中心虽然方便多了，但是如果我可以选的话呢，我一定还是喜欢cyberjaya多一点。那边的东西好吃，地方干净，又可以上网。不用像现在要在coffee bean 才能上网，写blog,upload 照片。我在这儿已经待了五个钟，原因是太久没有上网了。

今天是难得的假期。不用上班，但是在家也不知道要做些什么。刚才想要放我生日的照片上facebook的时候才发现我生日那时的照片不知为何不见了，当时傻了一下，心情马上跌入谷底。还有，刚和同事去clubbing的照片也是不见了。那时其次，最伤心的还是生日的照片。

为了和他一起庆祝，前一天我也去剪了头发。换了一个发型，打扮漂漂亮亮，一起出去，吃饭，拍了很多的照片，自己很喜欢，很喜欢。之后因为不能上网，所以到现在才想放上网，但是现在。。。真的很生气，又不能做什么。他又不在我的身边，真想有个肩膀靠。

这份工，多数周末都要上班，相处的时间变少了，之间的话题少了。但是每次见面之后要分离的时候，发现自己更爱他，更想他。 有时会发现每一次都会再爱上他，一次又一次。可能有些人会觉得很肉麻，但是，我想知道是否有人和我一样的感觉呢？

但是，感情真的是一门很高深的学问，需要两个人尽力的维持，两方面的付出。有时候，我太任性，太不会体谅，伤他很深，我是知道的。但是，我的人又很好胜，不想认输，低头。我想改变，我会尽量改变，为了我们的未来。虽然我知道很多人不能接受他，包括我的家人。不同种族真的那么重要吗？我知道他很难过，他每次都收在心上。他很尽力的尝试和我的家人，朋友相处。但是，有时他会觉得我的朋友其实不喜欢他。没有人想和他说话，我向他解释是大家不好意思和他说英文。他说他谅解，但是有时候有些感觉只有他自己知道。我真的很伤心因为我知道他很伤心，只是他都自己承受。有时候我可以看得出他是为了我，很尽力的和大家沟通，相处。为了我，他真的付出很多。他很完美， 真的，对我很好。我真的应该改变自己，为了他。他的家人，朋友对我都很好，尤其是他的妈妈，实在是好到不行。

我想，我的家人几时才能完完全全的接受他呢？我真的很想知道。

今天，我真的很想他。

好了，是时候离开coffeebean 回家了。

it's been a while

It's been a while since i last blog.

Shifted to a new place near masjid jamek because company shifted to kerinchi station.

I have no internet facility there. No facebook, no msn. Everyday is so boring.

Everyday just go to work, come back, rest, watch dvd.

It makes me become very lazy, always lying down on bed.

I feel so unhealthy actually. Not much exercise compared to last time and I'm gaining weights as well. Working, eating, sitting down, facing computer, answering calls is just a routine.

Now i know why adults always complaint that money is not easy to earn.

Very true, not easy to earn, but easy to spend. Without realise, few hundreds can 'pooooff', go missing.

However, sometimes money is well spent, on something that makes you happy. I will feel very happy because it is worth.

I'm still looking for another place to move, hopefully some where near kerinchi station, if can i want to find some places that is walking distance.

Anyone have any suggestion please let me know.

Arigatou ne!^^

A joke to share!

Here goes the story.

I have a friend. Is a he.

One day when we were in the same lift, just two of us, there is nobody else in the lift.

When we reached our floor, I went out first.

So he was left behind.

I'm just outside of the lift wondering why he was still not yet come out.

Then I heard a looooooooooooooooong sound.

After that, he came out.

The first thing I did was run back to my house.

Why?

ERM...Why?

Because he was farting in the lift.

And you know what?

There was another person waiting for the lift outside.

After he came out, the same thing he did was run back with me.

We laugh like hell on the way till I can't even open my house's lock.

Cant stop laughing till now everytime I recall about that.

Damn him!!! >.<

Working Life

Everybody say study is better than work.

I'm totally agree with both my hands ans legs up.

Working life is just like a routine.

Something you have to do but not necessarily that you will like it.

Feel stress sometimes. But it is just a start. The journey is still long.

However, I believe I can cope with it. How long it will take? I do not know.

I just need time.

Everyday come back from I will feel very lazy to go out again.

Like to stay in my own little space.

Do anything I like. Enjoy my own privacy. My little space.

Working life making me feel tired easily.

I understand why Bird get to bed so early at night already.

Totally understand.

I will easily fell asleep when lying on bed. Even with the light still on.

Maybe I'm growing older? I think so.

Mentally and physically.

Every week will wait for Friday to come. That is the most happy thing. Then can rest for 2 days.

No more semester break. No more holidays.

That's why I just can't wait for weekend! ^^

For this week? Another 2 days to go!

Yeah.

*counting down* ^^

Gain weights

I gain a lot of weights recently.

Help! Have to do a lot of exercises and eat less already.

For those trying to say : You are not fat,believe me, do not believe what can you see.

Arrggghh, must have discipline already.

No more live for food motto.

Please do remind me that I'm fat so that i can remember. Thanks. LOL.

Nara's Birthday!

Went back to celebrate dear's birthday.

Went to Sampan. Not so satisfied with the food there.

After that we went to Pure Bar. I'm Red..lol

A tired night after all...lol

A New Stage of LIFE

Something happened on me recently.

I got robed at the night before my first day of work.

Still cant believe what happened to me. But to accept it.

Julia, I'm not so lucky after all.

After the incident, I know dear love me a lot.

I felt it and I'm so touched.

Felt guilty for my stupidity and being so emotional.

However, I learn my lesson and will be more alert in the future.

A new stage of life, working life.

Decided to cut my hair to welcome my new life.

Taadaa...The result...Nice? Please give me some comments...Thanks.

Working in cyberjaya now. Everything is ok except for the boredom in this dead city.

My colleagues. All are pretty, playful and open-minded. We always joke around and time pass so fast without realised.

But I'm so glad that finally I can online to watch shows and download some movie and all... ^^

Good or Bad?

I'm too free at this moment! Good or Bad?No more lab, no more thesis, no more exams, no more classes.

I'm so free. Free to hang out. Free to online. Free to do anything I want.

Finding job at the moment. Everyday have to check mail, looking for new vacancy everywhere.

Sometimes it's so bored. Sometimes I enjoyed this kind of life so much.

I want to go shopping, clubbing, hang out with all my frens.

I miss Siok Yee, Yun Yan, How Yee, Joanne, Louanne, Li Wen so much. They were very close to me for the past few years.

I miss enggang. Stayed there for 2 years. Visit from room to room just to talk, or gossip was so fun.

I miss my coursemates. I miss a lot of ppl.

I'm confused about my future.

But I believe in fate. Everything will come and go with reason.

Just face it i think.

There is somewhere over the Rainbow.

We'll see. ^^

Mosquitoes love me a lot!

Everywhere i go, mosquitoes like to follow me.

They love me so much.

They even kiss me.

Everywhere.

They were too enthusiastic until they bite me too.

This is what we called Love Bite? *LOL*

My hands after jogging in the morning!

My right hand.

Left hand.

Itchy like hell.

Darling cant stand and bought for me insect repellent cream.

Still, they love me sometimes.

Just sometimes.

At least a lot better.

Mosquitoes, please leave me alone!

KIDS...BABIES

When worked as a part-time last time, I'd noticed that kids/babies nowadays have very thick and long eye lashes. Wondering why. Why so? Why kids last time do not like this? What kids nowadays eat? I love kids/babies. They are so cute, so innocent! Check it out the photos. The kid is super duper cute! Fuyoh! I want a kid so dearly!!!!!

Final Year Course Trip~Lang Tengah

Lang Tengah is lcoated in Terengganu.

It is very near to Redang Island.

The water there is clean.

Blue sky and clear sea.

Sunny day, hot! Lots of sun block applied!

But still became darker. :-(

Lots of star in the clear dark sky at night.

Waiting for shooting stars but failed! My friends told me they saw a lot when they were in Redang last time.

Went snorkelling. Went jungle trekking.

Throw people in water. Buried people in the sand. Played crazy games. Shouted loud.

Took lots of photos. Satisfied.

Played with water. Played with wind. Played with soul. Play as hard as we can.

Found 'Blue Tears' on the beach. It's Pseudomonas fluorescent! What a beautiful thing!

Working life coming soon. So, I must treasure all the time before getting 'no life'.

Final Exam~

Final exams coming, approching me.

But I am already in holiday mood.

No mood to study.

Tomorrow is virology final test.

I am going to die.

Haha.

Better go to study rather than wait to die.

Chiaoz....

Finally

Finally, I'm free.

Free from lab work.

No more experiment.

No more worry.

No more final year project.

But still have thesis.

But I feel good now.

Happy!

Thought of pampering myself.

Any suggestion? hehe

Life isn't good enough!

I want my freedom!

I need more and more freedom!

Set me free. Please!

I need my crazy life.

Please don't take it away from me.

Treasure

Took 1030 bus back to malacca.

Reached malacca at 1230.

Dad picked me up.

Went to grandma's shop to visit her.

She is thinner and looked tired.

She was really happy that I went back to see her.

First time I saw her tears dropped.

Same goes to my dad.

When I talked to grandama, I saw the droplet of tears.

He turned to wiped them off.

But, I saw.

I hope she can get well soon.

I love her.

Today I did something I rarely do to my family.

I hugged her before i left.

Hug actually is not a culture practise in my house.

But that moment meant a lot to me.

I think she thought the same too.

Bought 1400 bus ticket.

Back to Serdang at 1540.

Today was a rainy day.

For both the weather and feeling.

Treasure everyone in life.

Not too late to regret.

Not too late for a move.

An action do make a lot of different.

new exposal about myself~ it's complicated!

I always thought I'm strong enough.

I always thought I'm brave to face anything.

My sister told me that my grandmother was sick yesterday. She went for X-ray and will get result by today.

I called home just now. Mum told me that grandma will going for treatment in Singapore this weekend. There is something wrong with her liver. She asked me to go home this weekend.

Damn it! I have finishing school this weekend. It is quite impossible to skip.

I told my mum that I see what can I do for it then.

After put down the phone, complicated feelings all came.

Over my mind.

My feelings fluctuated.

My mood was down.

My grandama was about 92 years old. Nothing serious about her health before this. She is a good person, very kind and nice. I always thought she is very healthy.

I was shocked when know that she is sicked.

Complicated. Complicated.

Made my plan to skip tomorrow SAK class.

I will go home as early as I can to pay her a visit. Planned to come back to Serdang as early as I can too.

Thesis still have to be completed.

I always thought I will feel nothing when I heard some shocking news.

Well, I believe I was very wrong.

A good way to know myself huh.

A new exposal about myself.

God, please bless her. I wish she will get well soon so dearly.

Take a break...kit kat? ^^

Pressure is all around all these undergraduate students.

Find out what had they did?

Where they went?

Taa Daa.....

Quattro..

For?

Music? Alcohol? Erm..Release tension?

Find out already?

Well, we were enjoyed ourselves!

There are 4 seasons's bar over there.

I love this.

Love u joanne!

Sotong SS with me! ^^

A memorable fun day!

Everyday is Valentine's Day

That day was Valentine's day. I was waited this day to come since few weeks before. I don't really know why because since we had already been together for few years and this was not the first Valentine's day for us. But, I just can't wait for it. ^^

Present is not a must and neccessary thing for us. But this year, I wanted to give him something. He bought for me presents and stuffs all the days in a year. He loves me a lot. I know. But I'm actually a cold hearted girl. *Lol* I'm stubborn. I'm egoistic. I've a lot of bad habits. I'm too outgoing. I'm too playful. I'm not a good girl friend but he still appreciates me a lot. I know this.

When two person came along together, there must be something between them. Yes. Special. He is super duper special. Nice with temper. Very very patients, especially to me. ^^ Take care of me super well. People who know me long enough should have notice my changes.

What women need is the feeling that somebody do really care for them. A shoulder. A hug. A kiss. A understanding. Even a look, can really make a woman melt.

I already found my shoulder.

I hope everybody do. ^^

p/s: this is the dress last time I mentioned I bought when chinese new year eve.

chuak sai experience.

today i bathed very very early...wat time? around 745p.m. yes. u r not wrong. To me, it is. I had asked my ex-roommate chin how yee to da bao spicy pan mee for me. When i went bec from the bathroom to my room, i found out there pan mee was on my table. Then, I went to miss ang's room n ask her whther how yee came b4 or not. She just answered me y ask like tat. Then, I answered tat i saw the mee on my table. She doesnt said much and then i went back to my room. I was thinking OMG, my room was so messy. Din expect her to come so early man!

I went to take bowl and planned to continue my show. After that, I tot of sending her a msn msg n say thx. However, I found out i took the wrong chopsticks. Therefore, I went out and changed. When i went bec to room again, I tot of calling her. Then so coincidence, my phone rang. My phone was on the bed. When i picked up the phone den i realised got SMTHG beside me. The THING was hide at the corner btw my cupboard n bed.

The only thing i did at tat moment was stare at tat THING and after 2 seconds delayed, I screamed. I never scream like tat in my life before i think. Even when play space shot or some scary games.I remembered i screamed at a very very high frequency and also screamed for quite long time. Then i started to hit the THING. As hard as i can. Then cant stop laughing. Tat THING was my ex-roommate, How Yee. She and miss ang were so terrible. Their plan was to scare me and they did.

walau..this was really a good memory for me then. I think this was what i deserved bcoz years ago in college i used to scare all of them. When form 6 also, i used to scare all my housemates. Hide in the cupboard to scare yun yan to death. Hide at the corner to scare miss ang. Now was my turn.

I knew. I deserved it. :-(

Haiyo...u guys wait...to my return...........lol~

mid nite

i'm a person who enjoy the mid night moment a lot.

i like the peaceful feeling.

i like the quiet time.

mayb i'm too noisy during the day.

i need sometime for myself to stay quiet.

basically do rubbish thing at this kind of moment but i L.O.V.E it.

i know it is bad for health n i always heard ppl said will die of sudden.

but i do not care.

i'm a stubborn person.

always a stubborn person.

i do not know wat is the purpose of writing all this rubbish but i enjoy it.

a while more hv korean test but i do not care much.

sometime really dunno myself well.

yeah, like wat he always said, he knows me better than myself.

i need lot of motivations.

to do things tat i hv to do.

to keep my mind clear.

there are too much temptations out there n i couldn't resist.

i enjoy outing too much!

spend money like water.

but i enjoy it.

i'm ...i'm....i'm....

just being myself~we only live once~

你不是真正的快乐

人群中哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色

你再也不会梦或痛或心动了

你已经决定了 你已经决定了

你静静忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着

而回忆越是甜就是越伤人

越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深切切淡掉了

你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

这世界笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了

当生存是规则不是你的选择

于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着

你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐 你的伤从不肯完全的愈合

我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后再后悔着

你不是真正的快乐 你的笑只是你穿的保护色

你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了

把你的灵魂挂在永远锁上的躯壳

你不是真正的快乐 你的伤从不肯完全的愈合

我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河

难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了

你知道真正的快乐 你应该脱下你穿的保护色

为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢

能不能就让配角全部结束在此刻 重新开始活着

by Mayday

This is another Mayday's song i like!

Been playing again n again in my laptop! :-D

my cutie pie~

突然好想你

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆突然翻滚绞痛著不平息

最怕突然 听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音

不愿那是悲伤的哭泣 事到如今

终于让自己属于我自己 只剩眼泪 还骗不过自己

突然好想你 你会在哪里

过得快乐或委屈

突然好想你

突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲

变成两部悲伤的电影

为什么你带我走过最难忘的旅行 然后留下 最痛的纪念品

我们 那么甜那么美那么相信 那么疯 那么热烈的曾经

为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你

你会在哪里

过得快乐或委屈

突然好想你

突然锋利的回忆

突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静

最怕朋友突然的关心

最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛著不平息 最怕突然 听到你的消息

最怕此生 已经决心自己过

没有你

却又突然 听到你的消息

by Mayday

Fall in love with this song. It mean a lot.

The lyrics really touch my heart.

new year clothes

when cny is just near the corner, i was not really hv buy wat i called 'new year's clothes'..

i was thinking nvm la, cincai wear can d since i had some new clothes bought last time tat i not yet wear once.

but when came to cny eve, suddenly think of buying dress for cny!

erm..woman's mind change very fast ya~ lol

went to jonker walk's boutique where i used to work last time, i asked my ex-colleague to introduce me some new n nice dress!

n she did her great job...i'm in love v this dress so much! bought 2 dresses there n luckily the lady boss was nice enough still gave me staff price...2 dresses only RM79.90...walao...this time really untung!!!

having a good luck year this year? i H.O.P.E so!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

me at temple~cheng hoon teng

this is one of the dressess..the other one i do not hv a chance to wear yet...will post it next time den..^^